Sunday, January 22, 2012

Acts 21 - Ready to die?

As I sit down to blog through chapter 21, I have to admit that I’m a little bit worn out from a great weekend with family. The awesome thing is as I sit down and read the Word I seem to regain some energy, there seems to be a freshness that comes anew in time spent with God, both physically and spiritually. We read in Scripture about the Holy Spirit being a stream of living water, and it’s incredible to feel that stream filling me up again. I have struggled in my life, as I think most Christians have, of always maintaining that hunger and thirst for God’s word, needing it each day to survive. I go through times where I can’t get enough but I have also gone through times where reading is truly a discipline and not a desire, and thankfully those times are fewer and farther between. What has caused that change in my heart? Discipline.

In this first 14 verses I see a couple things. First of all, once again I see a characteristic of who Paul was shine forth, and that characteristic is one of a need for relationship. When Paul arrived at Tyre he immediately search out and found some of the disciples there. I am sure he was in need of a place to sleep for the week, but I think he also had a great need for relationships with those men and women. He sought them out to study and pray with them, to encourage and be encouraged by them. Am I that relationally driven? Do I seek out those relationships and that time with other believers like Paul did? I need to…

Secondly in this first section, we see this prophesy about what was going to happen to Paul by this guy named Agabus, and it is detailed and very specific. These are the times our faith is really put to the test. It’s one thing to sign up to follow God when there is a chance that something bad could happen. Then, it’s much easier to “stand on faith” and risk whatever it is that we are risking to follow where God calls us to follow. It’s a whole different ball game to step up and to go when God tells us there is trouble waiting for you, there is hardship ahead, and I’m still asking you to go. I would love to say I would have said the same thing as Paul, I would love to say I would have dismissed the pleadings and urgings to stay where it was comfortable and safe, but I really just don’t know.

“For I am ready not only to be bound but also to die in Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus.” Am I? Would I? Will I? I pray fervently that if and when the opportunity comes to put my life where my mouth is when it comes to my faith and trust in Jesus that I will walk down that path, not worried about what lies ahead but only concerned with who is leading me there.

Father these words of Paul are incredibly profound, and I have no doubt that Paul meant them with every fiber of his being, but these words are incredibly difficult to say and to really believe. God you have led me down some paths that had forks in the path with some tough decisions to make, but nothing that compares to this. Prepare me for the little decisions and the big decisions, that I will always be willing to take the path you’ve laid out before me, regardless of the amount of comforts, pleasures, pains, or trials that come with it.
 
Finally, out of this passage I see how Paul’s friends and fellow believers treated him. They pushed on him and pleaded with him to stay. They were concerned about his physical well-being, as any friends would be, and they begged him not to go. Have I ever done that? Have I ever tried to obstruct God’s will by pursuing my agenda in someone else’s life instead of my own? I want to be a person that others come to for Godly, Spirit-led advice. I want people to know that I will pray about their situation and earnestly seek God for the direction that He is leading them, and for that to happen I have got to faithfully ask God on their behalf. Paul’s friends were not doing him any favors by begging him to stay. They were thinking about themselves and the struggles that would be ahead for them if, in fact, Paul was bound and was killed. Paul, showing incredible maturity, scolded them a little and asked them to stop. He knew what the plan was and he was willing to pursue it, but they weren’t ready to let him go. I need to be the Paul in that situation and not his friends. No matter the cost to myself or to a friend, no matter the trouble or struggle that will come as a result of a decision, I need to always give those things to God and allow Him to provide the answer. My perspective isn’t big enough, my view of the big picture is pretty fuzzy, but God’s isn’t. I need to make sure I am not breaking people’s hearts by trying to influence their decisions with my own selfish desires rather than God’s plan for their lives!

The final note I want to make about Acts chapter 21 is regarding Paul’s demeanor as he is being falsely accused and beaten by the mob. He is calm, collected, and isn’t rattled at all. He knows he’ll get the chance to speak and he waits for that moment. First of all he is able to react this way because he is filled to the brim with the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit brings an incredible amount of patience and forgiveness. When I see myself react in anger or frustration at situations or people, those are clear indicators that I still need to give up control of more of my heart to the Spirit! I also think Paul reacts this way because he knew it was coming. It was prophesied a few verses ago, but even beyond that he knew all along that this life of following Jesus was never promised to be an easy one, and that hasn’t changed for me either. When I am faced with struggles or persecution or whatever else frustrates me, I shouldn’t be caught off guard! I shouldn’t be surprised because I was told early on this would happen. I need to begin praying ahead of the storms, asking that God would give me patience and a calm spirit and an attitude of forgiveness long before I come upon those situations, so when they come I’ll be better prepared. Paul took everything he got with a confidence that it was part of the plan and that ultimate revenge would be God’s, and that was enough for him. I need that to be enough for me as well. Paul was silent until it was his time to speak, and when that time came he let them have it. I need to be prepared to speak, to be silent and gracious until that time arrives, then let the Spirit move through me like Paul did!

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